moving in, moving on
and so i’ve moved out again from someplace which was home for a while…
…and moved in to something, someplace unfamiliar with the hopes of a better everything–from styles, to perspectives, to the frequency of writing, and perhaps even luckier and better days…
…and moved on from the dissatisfaction, the boredom, the deadlock.
this move sprung from the feeling/idea/thought that lately, my attention span had been just too short (and so is my memory) and i get bored with stuff even before i get my hands into it. “i need some distraction, a beautiful release” as sarah mclachlan sings, and yeah, that’s what i’m singing too right now. i need a some sort of change because life had been too routinary lately and i’m bored to a certain point. everything seemed to be about work and the usual stuff and there’s no other life. it’s not that i am complaining. work and life in general have been good lately. it’s just that i need a little CHANGE, a breath of fresh air, so to speak.
so this is the distraction. this is the change.
it’s just that i’m starting to withdraw again in this shell that i have created. it’s starting to get comfortable and easy because things seemed to be simpler and more serene in that little world plus things present themselves in different shades of blue. but this scares me to a point because i can’t live there forever and so i have to break away now. i have to break away now because i am human after all and not some marine organism that lives in shells. because really, i exist physically in the “outside world” and so i need people, and things, and places, and human emotions.
and the old home was just too complicated for me and the layout, too complex for me to tweak and i didn’t have the patience to learn how to do it.
so this is where i will be for a while. until further notice.
