Disrupting My Ecological Balance
I am kinda feeling worn-out these past few days. Restless. Lost. After the stressful Cotabato City event last week, it has been a series of meetings and lectures that I really hadn’t gotten enough time to breathe and catch myself.
It’s only after that event that certain realities have really set in. Prior to that stressful week, I had put on hold the tears and frustrations that I have been keeping. I am determined to stay focused on the task at hand that I really tried to stop emotions from getting in the way. And I succeeded. But now, the emotions exploded and flowed with rage. Now, I feel the failures.
I’m back to my real world but my brain is dead. It has stopped functioning and is replaced with these bleak feelings. There are deadlines to beat. People and loved ones to take care of. A future to think about. But my spirit is out somewhere, burying my dead brain.
How I wish life didn’t get this complicated. How I wish I have stopped desiring certain things in life. How I wish I have stopped dreaming and reaching for things. How I wish I can be completely happy for the fates of the people I love without feeling sorry for myself. How I wish God has just stopped making me feel these emotions the moment S/He denied me of what I want. And need.
But this is growing up. This is what it means to take care of yourself. This is what realities are. This is working hard and losing what and who you are along the way. This is dreaming and failing. This is what it is.
Life is certainly not always filled with sunny Thursdays. Thursdays can be cloudy too, you know.
TIME Magazine’s “51 Things We Can Do to Save the Environment”
Because Lito Atienza is already the country’s new environment secretary, I will just keep my rants and rumblings to myself about this news to save me from further self-ecological disruption and share with you TIME Magazine’s ideas on how to save the environment in simple, doable terms.
TIME Magazine: Can one person slow global warming? Actually, yes. You—along with scientists, businesses and governments—can create paths to cut carbon emissions. Here is our guide to some of the planet’s best ideas.
6 days to D-Day
6 days to D-Day and i’m right here blogging my cares away. 6 days to D-Day and my major problem is not really the event that involves the ambassador but what to wear when i stand behind her and hand over stuff for her to sign. 6 days to D-Day and i’m still in this “princess of coolness” mode which is not really normal. 6 days to D-Day and i’m still not agitated over the preps and that worries me.
6 days to D-Day and i’m already wishing it’ll be over.
